Earlier in the evening, I had a nice casual date with Lauren at a nice little TGIF's (Ew). She had some personal problems over the past weekend and we talked about it a great deal before we got to talking about things in general. Just like with Katy, it was a nice casual talk about nothing. She noted that I didn't look like my mutual self and asked if I had fully recovered, a coughing fit a few seconds later answered her question.
It was a good dinner and I think we needed it to establish whether or not our rapport was genuine. I'm still trying to make up my mind about it. Making a mental note, I need to try to go out with her more to see if there is a connection there.
Bear with me, I'm all hopped up on Nyquil and Cough Syrup on only a few hours of sleep and if this post makes absolutely no sense, don't worry, I'll edit it when I'm sober-ish.
I'm sitting up emptying out my TiVo of all the programs that have been piling up in the past. The only things that are on are a few movies that I like watching over and over whitch are VERY idealized romantic movies called, "The Quiet Man" and "The American President."
In fact, right now I'm watching "The Quiet Man" and I get a bit wispy watching it.
Yes.
Me.
The guy who has been a single guy forever who, up until recently, didn't think anything about one night stands.
Fact is, that the two movies are the way I want my IDEALIZED relationship to be.
TQM in particular strikes a chord, for the few girls that haven't discovered the movie, it basically deals with a man (John Wayne) coming back to his roots and falls in love with a traditional girl and hell insues as he tries to make sense of traditions and the silliness he sees on courtship.
God damnit, I WANT the silliness.
Without giving too much away, I am a bit of a traditionalist in some things. I want someone with the same (general) common background.
No, I don't want a happy house wife; I want a partner.
I want a woman who I will gladly fight for, and a woman who will not only fight FOR me, but fight against my own stupidity.
Yes. I acknowledge the fact that we men, have a tendency to be more than a little stupid at times.
The way I see it, our spouses are supposed to bring out the best in the people they share their life with.
Okay, so sometimes we may do it kicking as screaming, but in the end, we generally need it.
Well, maybe I'm just talking about myself, but you may nod silently to yourself and I won't tell.
The thing is that I want a woman that has the same basic traditions that I do; who won't bend over to my will and stand up to me when its needed.
Thing is, I thought I came fairly close to that a few times and I was hoping I struck gold recently, but it wasn't meant to be.
To add to being "traditional" as far as a relationship or marriage goes, IDEALLY she would like some of my interests as well.
I know I've discussed this in a previous post, but it still bugs me on what I TRULY want in a relationship and which would win out the most?
If looking for both qualities in a woman, would that lead me on a chase for the Holy Grail that I may never find? Would it be enough for me to only find half of what I'm looking for to give up looking for either that "Traditional" girl or "Nympho?"
It just makes me wonder.
Excuse me, I have to go ponder sobering up before I go to sleep.
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