Rebirth of a blog

This blog, I think will take a bit of a new turn, while it seems that I'm in a relationship that continues to grow, this blog, like people, has to grow as well.
I will start including more of family/relationship and as well the children. As usual, I will take great pains to disguise details as much as possible so people won't put two and two together. 

Will I be deleting the previous posts?
No.  The posts are about who I was at the time, and this will show a chronological sense of my journey from someone single, to someone that isn't.

Will this alter my other blog?
Hardly, but it will change a bit.  FF's role will increase on there and will participate, or even arrange the parties and perhaps even talk about some of her CL adventures on here.

Will FF know about the blogs?
No.  Period.  If anything, I will have to find a creative way to hide this blog from my histories once the inevitable merging occurs.

Will sex be mentioned on here?
As it was previously, no.   But the various topics ABOUT sex and what couples go through will be talked about.

What else will be mentioned on here?
For starters, my relationship with FF her friends and family, as well as my own.  
Expect a bit more drama as well, particularly between me, her kids and my own child as we all go through a transition of sorts.  While mine is away in college, she is feeling a bit of a need to extend her own independence at the expense of any feelings I may have on the various topics.

Twit Twittering about...and about twittering twit.

In case a few humble readers have notice, I put a twittering widget on the site.  
Over the past few months, I've been so busy I haven't had a chance to blog about the things that have happened (and am working on 3 different posts from December!), so I'd thought I'd cave into the popularity of it and do a little micro-blogging.

At least in this way, you can see what goes on and what might trigger a post.

Additionally, my kiddo has had some interesting insight on some of my dating exploits (the women, not the sex.) so I might include some of our more interesting conversations in.

And for those wondering, I'm down to 110 posts on my google reader.
I'm off to work in this god for saken cold weather.

One door opens wider, and trying shutting another.

 The progression between FF and I as a couple, seems to be moving forward.
Seems like she wants me to meet the kids within the next few weeks or so.
Personally, I think it's a bit too soon, but it's something she wants to happen, so I'm not going to argue too much about it.

She continues to tell me about her variety of Craig's list posts and responses she confessed that one in which one that she answered for a massage went much further than she intended.  She asked if I would be opposed to go one with her.

My comment was that I'd probably make it worse and have both of the guys do her instead.
She just giggled about it and we let the matter drop.  Either way, things seems to be on the road to be more serious between us.


Since she still actively goes on CL for a variety of reasons, I'm not going to get into too much of what she specifically looks for or anything.



A few hours later, as I was writing ANOTHER post, Andi came up on one of my IM's.


Andi says:
 Hello
 how was your thanksgiving?
RIV says:
 Hey there. how are you?  Doing okay, worked it mostly.
Andi says:
 so whats new?
RIV says:
 Not too much. Might be meeting my g/fs kids in a week or two.

Andi says:
 cool
 Nervewracking ..meeting the kids huh?
 oh wow
 RIV says:
 Yes, I think it's a bit soon, but if that's what she wants, I can't really argue about it.  She's the best judge on that.
If things work out, I might get married sometime in the next two years or so as well, but we'll see.*
Andi says:
 oh wow
 thats great 
RIV says:
 yeah, she's freshly divorced, so I have to take it easy.
Andi says:
 I get that
 Meeting the kids is a big step..so one thing at a time
RIV says:
 I'm sure you do, the divorce was final just recently.
Andi says:
 Okay
 I could think of no other appropriate response to that ..lol
RIV says:
 LOL. not much you can say to that, really.
Andi says:
 I guess not
RIV says:
 I've been rather gunshy with divorcee's as of late.. had two other ones bail because they weren't ready.
Andi says:
 I dont blame you there..i dated way before I was ready and well it was a disaster
 I am in a much better place now
RIV says:
 Exactly.
 Which is why I'm actively encouraging her to meet other guys.
Andi says:
 Okay
 I can see that
 Can I tell you something?
RIV says:
 sure.
Andi says:
 I feel like everytime I talk to you , I want to tell you thanks for talking to me again.. I know it sounds nuts but thanks for the second chance.
RIV says:
 Oh. Okay.
 To be honest with you, you didn't get a second chance.  You dropped off my dating radar.
Andi says:
 I know that but I am glad we can be friends at least
 i am the same way as you , I am not forgiving when people are like I was.
 I can close a chapter with the best of them
Rick says:
 surely.
Andi says:
 Its a regret though.. but anyway I should finish this marketing project
 Have a good night..
RIV says:
 G'nite.
Andi says:
 thanks for clarifying that for me, I assumed as much. have a really good christmas in case I dont catch you. I am really glad to hear things are working out for you.  But I am sorry about us.
RIV says:
 No problem.  Take care.
Andi says:
 One last thing, its the most important. I hope you get all the happiness you deserve, you are priceless.

With that, she logged off before I had a chance to reply.  


I continued working on that "OTHER" post and a few minutes later, she was back and the conversation turned decidedly sexual in tone.


This is NOT what I was expecting after that chat.  
We wound up watching part of the Star Wars marathon together and had the oddest convos.


"Luke would be such a BORING lay" would be one of the comments uttered by her.
"How does Darth Masturbate in that thing?" she said at one point.
"Probably uses the 'Force'." I typed without even a pause to think about it. 


Somehow, in our typical rambling way, the conversation turned to the parties I throw**, and hinted she'd be interested, but I can't be there unless I was her "partner."


A few minutes after it started to turn into cybersex, I just said I needed to go to bed and called it a night and told her I had to get ready for bed. 
I'm sure it was quite frustrating for her.  


A few minutes later I got a text from her, "I never seen you run so fast before."
I ignored it and crashed.


* While I'm not sure if FF and I are going there anytime soon, I'd thought I'd throw that out there to see if I can plant that I really don't want her contacting me.  I can be TOO subtle at times.  
** She doesn't know the extent or the blog, and I doubt if she ever will. 

Teaser might have been the right name!

Having been ridiculously busy with some things having occurred over the past few months, I was finally able to sit, contact, and concentrate on Teaser for a bit.
Being only able to talk in short spurts with her since we last talked. 
One of the things she was mentioning was how her husband was trying to get into her good graces. 

A little background is in order:
The reasoning behind their separation was due to his cheating and basically kicked him out or she moved out.  Still never got the entire story of it.

Turns out, he has come back begging to be back in her life.  Initially, she had stated that she was quite reluctant to even give him more than a token response, but that had changed over the period of the week or two I haven't been able to have an extended conversation with her.
This week was supposed to be a week for us to get "more familiar" with each other while her kids were visiting her grandparents up north.
The day that they left, I contacted her, but she was fairly distant and didn't react to my overtures.  Comes to find out, she had an eye infection, and considering what she does for a living, it was putting her far behind in her work.  My being the workaholic that I am, I totally understood and gave her some distance so she can catch up to make her deadlines.

Towards the end of the week, we talked a bit more and admitted that she was looking forward to our extended rendezvous, but that she had been talking to her husband and talking about perhaps getting back together.  She was rather torn up about the whole situation and was rather confused about the whole matter on what to do.
Not one to interfere with what makes her happy for my own selfish reasons (I'm not THAT much of a Douche'), I simply wished her luck.

"I'm truly sorry." she went on...
"Apologize for what?" 
" I know you were looking forward to this week and I feel like I have been leading you on, but between the infection and my husband, I feel overwhelmed.  I hope you're shopping around for another woman, because I am very confused as to what do do."
"Not a big deal, you have some serious matters you need to settle."
Then a little surprise.
"You know, we could have a threesome", she added.
I just stared at my phone for a few moments before responding.  I had totally forgot they we swingers.
The next few moments were a bit of a blur and can't quite remember what was said, but it had turned decidedly sexual in nature.
"You know, instead of dealing with him, I'd rather be getting some," She confided.
"That can be arranged if you want." and then I went on how she could simply allow me to come to her house and give her a nice waking up.

Yes. I know, been there and done that before, but DAMN, it's fun!

She didn't promise anything, but said she'd think about it. 

Keeping my phone handy throughout the night, but I have learned not to anticipate much.
As my night drew to a close, I never received the text. 
Pretty much what I expected.

A night at the Opera; The (Un)magical Flute

Tonight's date and I went to a showing of Mozart's "The Magic Flute" that was (re)broadcast from the NYMet from the 2006 performance.
The Date that I went to was surprised that I wanted to go to this, but was something new for her. While she has attended several plays, she's never been to attended an opera.  I, on the other hand, try to attend these as often as I can, since these are more agreeable to my schedule than attending an actual performance at the Hobby Center or The Wortham.*
My date arrived at a nearby food establishment and had just burgers and fries and a couple of beers.
The topics ranged about our work, her work, her family, etc.
No spark.
None.
Looking at my watch, the clock ticked way too slow for my taste.
Meandering over to the theater, we take our spots in a quickly filling theater and we talk a bit longer about Operas, Mozart, and Art in general.
She hints that she's thirsty.
"I'll take a coke."
She just looks at me.
"Okay. a LARGE coke."
"You're not going to go get it?"
So far this whole thing has been on my dime, you would figure she'd at least spring the 4 bucks (or whatever) for a drink.  So much for a "casual" date.
I hand her my credit card, "Go have fun."
She leaves, slightly disappointed, while I open up my phone, and drool over Library Vixen's latest entry, and check up on email.
Arriving a few minutes later, she hands me my coke and, to my relief, the opera starts.
She tries to ask me something, unrelated to the opera and I "Shhh" her.

A short time later, it was over, she looked at me and said, "I don't get it."
The production wasn't the best, so for a person not familiar with it, I could understand her confusion.  She was fond of Papageno, didn't think Pamina was attractive, but Tamino had an excellent voice.   She also seemed quite impressed with the wardrobe (which I agreed were awesome). 
Begging off that I was tired, I offered to walk her to her car, give her a small kiss and walk away.

Yep. No magic there at all.
I immediately deleted, and did a casual chat with Starfish.  It was a short convo since I had the sudden urge to simply sleep early.
Time for CL again.

*Yes, I really AM someone with varied interests.

Dating in the Dark: Week 3

Initial impressions:

Chris: He seems to have a bit grown up due to his Cancer experience and seems to be genuinly looking for someone for him.

Philip: is a former Military guy that wants to find someone with "Depth", he's a hot guy and I can respect him saying that.  Already he's my favorite.

Billy Ray:  He seems to come from a family that has a tendency to be Serial Marry-ers (if that isn't a word, it is now), and is determined not to walk down that path.  He's the oldest of the 3 men and seems to be the most patient in finding someone.  But the reason of his being single this far along in his life could be that he could also just be whoring around.

My money is hoping for Philip, but Chris seems like a nice guy as well.  Living through cancer will usually sober a guy up from what I've seen.

Sasha:  "..Because I'm very superficial and I usually date boys that are hot." was the sentence that caught my attention.  She claims that DITD is going to be difficult for her because she seems to only like "hot guys".  Wow.  I can only imagine what kind of issues she has had to deal with in the past to get to this point.

Megan:  who comes from a conservative background and seems to date the "rough around the edges" guy. Which is interesting. That basically falls under the norm of people that are raised with such a background....from my experience.

Jennifer:  A military girl who seems to be quite Type A.  The men she has met in the past seem to have a problem with being in control.  Having dated military chicks in the past, I can't see what the problem guys have with her.  Allowing to have a LITTLE control over you isn't a big deal. If your ego can't handle it, blame it on yourself, not on her.   Unless she insists on keeping you in a dog pen..but that's a different type of show.

Initially, I believe Jennifer is the least PHYSICALLY attractive, but Sascha is the one that is lovely, but unattractive in personality.

Initial meeting:

Jennifer and Philip seem to find common ground because they were both in the military, which he finds sexy.  It seems that Jennifer seems to be smitten with Chris and doesn't even seem to mention Philip when she announces her "Front Runners" of Chris and Billy Ray.

Billy Ray seems to have his first two has Megan and Sasha, with Jennifer rounding up the rear.  His reasoning for Jennifer being last is because he isn't active in Physical training, which seems to be Jennifer's preference in guys.

The first initial dates:

Billy Ray and Megan picked each other:  He confided in her that his father had passed and was in and out of the system.  Her facial expressions seemed to change (to me) as soon as that was mentioned.   Megan stated that he wasn't probably as close to his family as she was to hers, and that didn't seem appeal to her very much.   I guess she believes a close knit family makes for a stable relationship?   I can kinda' see that.

When he met Sasha, and said she intrigued him.  He said that he was allergic to cats, and since she was a major animal person, that almost seemed like a deal breaker to her.
During the topic of work, he admitted that he can be quite lazy; on the other hand, she said she was obsessively working up to 16 hours a day.   It seems that he simply can't picture her knowing how to relax.

DUDE! Are you kidding me?

Sasha wasn't feeling it either, and told one of the girls that.

Jennifer and Chris met up for a date and the first thing that she asks is for him to see if he can do a pushup with her on his back.  Wow. Being that he's a Personal trainer, that was easy.

Philip and Jennifer met in the dark room and immediately started talking about their military careers.
He seems to be impressed with her with, what seems like, a "Take charge" person in her position in the military.

She seems to be fond of him and is interested in going on another date with him.

Sasha invites Chris for a date, he immediately starts talking about his past which includes the passing of his father from Brain cancer and his own battle with Cancer.  This breaks her heart, but seems genuinely touched that he confided this in her, sharing with her something that is apparently very intimate in his life.

Sasha and Jennifer seem to already be competing for the same guy.

During the wallet inspection, they seem to be quick to ridicule Billy Ray for his lack of any apparent wealth (6 lotto tickets and no cash) in his wallet.

Wish Sasha's purse proved to be interesting to the guys with it's disorganization.

Philips wallet, they found 422 bucks and a some credit cards which seems to really impress them for some reason.  It's at this point Jennifer makes the comment that since they apparently like to shop, they would also make a good match.

Jennifer's purse reveals a beat up purse and a chewed on lipstick. Which Philip dismisses as a woman that might have a Oral Fixation.

Chris' wallet:  70 bucks, a CPR card, and Sasha seems impressed with how "real" the wallet is. 

Umm...Okay.

Megan's Purse his a fashionable purse and organized.

the matchups:

Sasha and Billy Ray; which She promptly states, "That's why being good on paper doesn't make for a good relationship."  She immediately proclaims that she can't possibly see how they can be compatible. After their date, he comments that he was bored with it. 

Jennifer and Philip: She says they are fairly compatible, but was still wondering if Chris was more for her.

Megan and Chris:  Chris totally charmed her with some of his gentlemanly ways. (Take notes guys.)

Jennifer than Invited Chris into the room for a date and he totally charms her.
She later invites Philip into the room afterward and she admits that she also likes Chris, with Philip pretty much prompting her that if she thinks he likes Chris more, than perhaps she should simply go with him. 

Billy Ray and Sasha tried to get to know Sasha better, but he felt no connection with her and admits that there is no woman in the house that there for him.  

For the Final date, all girls picked Chris.
Philip also comes to the conclusion that he felt no real connection with the girls either and stepped up and gave him advice on how to get to where he wants to be with the right girl.

The girls all seem to have tension in the fact that they are all competing for the same guy.  They're joking around, but you can tell the competition is there.

His approach was to kiss all the women and see how it works out.  Interesting way of doing it.  Confiding too  Jennifer and Megan intimate moments about his pass seems to have won him over.
With the date with Sasha, he seems to be a bit put off with her sexual side of her.

At the end of the dates, he tells the guys that Jennifer is probably the most compatible to him.

When it came to the reveal, Billy Ray and Philip chose no one.  They took themselves out.
This is amazing to me, to be honest.

All women, however, picked Chris.

When they are talking about their expectations of Chris in the Reveal room, Megan hopes that He is stylish slightly rugged.
She comments she is a bigger girl, but not someone he normally dates, but admits that he is still attracted to her. She doesn't really seem to be as enthusiastic to his apparence.  
Which to me, is a shame, he's willing to overlook it, because they seem compatible, but she isn't.

Sasha's reveal shows an expression on her face that doesn't show that (to me) that she is pleased with what she sees.  She comments that his suit looks like he borrowed from his Dad and spiked hair and looked so young.  But once the lights were turned on, she wasn't attracted to him.
Once again, Chris comments that she's bigger than what he's normally used to dating and admits that he didn't find her being a redhead being very attractive to him.
Jennifer and Chris' reveal, she seemed pleased with his appearance and is "Gorgeous" but like the other ladies, she noted his youthful appearance.
He later comments that while she may be attractive, there is a "wild" look to her personality.

While this may make him seem a bit on the Douche'-y side (my word, feel free to use it.) he seems to come away with a more open mind than the other girls do.

before the Balcony, Sasha makes the comment that Chris isn't as attractive (!) as the other men she had dated, and is wondering if she can look past that and remember the good times they had in the dark.
Really, Sasha?  REALLY??  You're no awesome looker yourself. 
Sorry.

Jennifer comments that she is still quite attracted to him, but is wondering if his age would be a deal breaker because she would feel like she's dating a younger brother.

Megan on the other hand, LIKES him, but she doesn't think that HE would make her FRIENDS comfortable.
Oh come on!

Chris later comments that he is most attracted to Jennifer as far as physically and personality.

As he stands on the Balcony, he is hoping that Jennifer walks up.

Sasha walks out the front door and proclaims that looks really do matter to her and thinks that the rest of the world is the same way.  Looks matter.   Somehow, I'm not surprised with this.  Good luck, lady!
It's ironic that He didn't find HER attractive.  Beauty is always subjective.

Megan walks out the front door and decides that it is best that she not meet him, thereby giving him false hope of a relationship since she also had doubts that a relationship would be successful.
When he saw her walk out, he was actually quite glad and admitted that she wasn't his type.

She is shown to walk out the front door as well, but says that he is a little young for her.

You could tell that he was a bit heartbroken, but he says that he isn't going to take this too hard and keep moving on and realizes that there is another girl out there for him.

Looks like no one picked anyone.

It's a shame, but I would have thought Philip and Chris would have been better luck with the rest of the ladies.

Overall, I think the producers did a lousy job of picking someone for this week (Or they did it on purpose to prove a point), but it does seem to show that looks are quite important to people, whom I think who I think are less than spectacular as well.

The only person I can probably give a pass too is Jennifer, she seemed to have some legit reasons, she found him sexy and attractive, but the age thing (or youthful look) might bother women.  At least, I would suspect it, unless they want to look like a cougar. :)


'Scuse me while I'm bummed out and reach for my Ice Cream and Erase and gladly erase this episode from my TiVo.

Cranial Fecal Matter

Blogging (of different genre's) has always been a way for some of us to document our lives, the world around us, to make a difference, or simply be our own cheap therapy session.

Being a Dating blogger (as well a Sex blogger), what we post on here, for the most part, is a snippet of our lives. A snapshot, if you will.  Different snap shots at different times and places.  Very rarely will anyone make the abstract jump as to HOW we get from here to there. 
It's akin to taking a trip starting from one end of the nation to the other, tell you I'm there; but not mentioning the route I took, the foods that were eaten, or the oddities that are seen, witnessed, or done.
In quite a few ways, I feel like I'm cheating you (the eight readers that read this drivel) by not saying what happened in between the stories that I have posted.
While, I'm not proclaiming that my life, in any way, shape, or form is something that I would even consider fascinating,  I am open to comments or questions to both of my blogs as to what happened in between posts. While it may not be fascinating to me, it might fill in an answer for you.

I got that out of the way:

Unless I wish to start an additional blog (under this or another pseudonym) in which I'd talk about other things that interest me. My drivel might start being even more....drivel-ish. Due to my life being in a bit of a hectic, my dating has come to an abrupt stop, but I am still doing the occasional CL for playmates/Girlfriends.
The things I've been considering writing about things that occur to me on a daily basis, or wish to open a dialogue about things. My reading list, is a bit of a clue on my interests, but my life isn't simply contained between my legs (although, to be honest, I would LOVE for someone to be constantly between them), but rather in my mind that is in a frenzy search of answers.

A wide variety of questions always seem to come into my head but with few people to talk about it with and explore.  It's not that I don't' have a close group of friends or even friends with high intelligence, but more like topics that simply doesn't register as having any importance in their lives.  

Questions of "Are you or I considered 'evil' to other people?", "If Hitler got accepted to Art school, what would the world be like?", "What is it like to be in Hawking's or Einstein's brain?", "How in the world did someone have the guts to TRY to eat a ginger root?", and "Do Assholes KNOW they're assholes?"


There is so much in my head, but I realize quite a number of you probably don't care of what goes on inside my head, but hey; It's my blog and if I get this caffeinated again, lord knows what you'd find.


FYI: This post took an hour and a half to write and deleted 90% of it.  Heaven help y'all if I decide to post the echos in my head.

Reading List

These are my current and past reading lists.  The reason I'm making this list is that I hear great books I want to read but I forget to buy them.  I hope to correct this with buying a kindle in the NOT too distant future.  This will give you a slight taste of what I'm like and how my mind might work.
I may be functionally illiterate, but I do like to read when I can.
Feel free to comment or make recommendations in either comments or in email.  Yes, there is a brain behind the penis, but like your typical male, one is slightly bigger than the either.


As of 7/10/09

Currently reading:

"Wired for Warfare" by P.W. Singer


In queue: 

"Future Jihad" by Walid Phares
Supercapitalism by Robert B. Reich
"The Big Switch" By Nicholas Carr
"American On Purpose" by Craig Ferguson

Previous:
"Monster of Florence" by Douglas Preston
"Unwind" by Neal Shusterman
"The Adventure of English" by Melvyn Bragg
"Malcolm X" by Alex Haley
"An Inconvenient Book" by Glenn Beck
The Early books written by "David Eddings"
"Sole Survivor" by Marcus Luttrell

Random odd shit

First off, I'm dressed and ready.

Not going to get super dressed because I have to work tonight and want to be comfortable, but I want to show I CAN clean up properly.

Another thing that has been going through my mind is religion.
Having been raised Catholic, it took quite a bit to change my outlook on life and free myself of most of those bonds, but I have always held on (in a kinda of love/hate kinda' way) to my faith of sorts. I mean, considering what I like to do and have lived my life, I can SO burn in hell.

Then that's when I realized a cool factor with Catholicism; we can confess and all our sins would be forgiven.
I imagine it's akin to writing all your sinful actions on an etch a sketch (albeit a large one for me), handing it to a priest (or God, whatever), having him turn it over and shake it; WOO! Clean slate!

Last night I had several odd dreams, one of which I had a beard when I met my date and she ran away.
Not that I blame her, I tried growing a beard several years ago, I gave up when I figured I was going to look like a Taliban member that smelled of Old Spice.

My other dream related to what I touched briefly in my last post: How to see how kinky they are?

In my head I asked her after the 2nd date (I'm an optimist)the following:
"What would you say to a threesome, either with guys or girls?"
"Do you believe in 'Barny's' saying, 'Caring means sharing' applies sexually as well?"
"What are your thoughts on Anal play and orgies?"
"If you're not into (name kink) do you mind if I have someone on the side that is?"

There were a few more, but I can't remember them. Each one ended in either a slap or me waking up in a cold sweat.

Just a quick one...

Since I've been laid up, I've literally had nothing to do but watch movies, curse my cat, and read blogs.
Hell, I can't even really talk on the phone because of this blasted cough, but I can drive for short periods of time just to get out of this bloody place.

On my other blog, I recently was talking about a blog going away that I'm going to miss, but there has been a close call with another blog. After going through a rough patch with some people associated with, she thought about taking the blog private.  Due to a barrage of comments asking her not to give in, she decided to keep posting like she had done so previously.  It is my hope that this will stem the tide of some very popular blogs that have been going to black in the past few months, among my favorites, which is a shame.


This is an example of why I always tell people to keep the details of their blogs vague enough where people can't pinpoint information about them.  
I happen to live in a large city, and therefore am able to hide more easily, even though I give some details that yet to be seen on any other blogs.  My expectations are that there is enough traffic overall that people won't be able to pin down who is who.

In my last post, I mentioned my fondness of certain movies and what my idealized (maybe totally unrealistic) view of romance.  Well, so happens they are running "The Quiet Man" on TMC on the 17th of March at 8PM EST.
Given this is on St. Patrick's day, everyone should be a bit on the bombed side, so be sure to set up your TiVos or other DVR's. 
I think you ladies might appreciate the movie, though.

On the dating front, I got a nice little offline IM from Andi;
"Haven't heard from you in awhile, how have you been? Call me?"
OMG, is she serious?
After giving it a couple of hours, debating whether or not to reply, I tapped in my message:
"You already know the deal, or haven't you been listening?"

Hopefully she will get the hint, or she simply doesn't want to let go.

My Fantasy, My Wish, My Happily Ever After...IDEALLY

Earlier in the evening, I had a nice casual date with Lauren at a nice little TGIF's (Ew).  She had some personal problems over the past weekend and we talked about it a great deal before we got to talking about things in general.   Just like with Katy, it was a nice casual talk about nothing.  She noted that I didn't look like my mutual self and asked if I had fully recovered, a coughing fit a few seconds later answered her question.
It was a good dinner and I think we needed it to establish whether or not our rapport was genuine. I'm still trying to make up my mind about it.  Making a mental note, I need to try to go out with her more to see if there is a connection there.

Bear with me, I'm all hopped up on Nyquil and Cough Syrup on only a few hours of sleep and if this post makes absolutely no sense, don't worry, I'll edit it when I'm sober-ish.

I'm sitting up emptying out my TiVo of all the programs that have been piling up in the past.  The only things that are on are a few movies that I like watching over and over whitch are VERY idealized romantic movies called, "The Quiet Man" and "The American President."
In fact, right now I'm watching "The Quiet Man" and I get a bit wispy watching it.
Yes.
Me.
The guy who has been a single guy forever who, up until recently, didn't think anything about one night stands.
Fact is, that the two movies are the way I want my IDEALIZED relationship to be.
TQM in particular strikes a chord, for the few girls that haven't discovered the movie, it basically deals with a man (John Wayne) coming back to his roots and falls in love with a traditional girl and hell insues as he tries to make sense of traditions and the silliness he sees on courtship.
God damnit, I WANT the silliness.
Without giving too much away, I am a bit of a traditionalist in some things.  I want someone with the same (general) common background.
No, I don't want a happy house wife; I want a partner. 
I want a woman who I will gladly fight for, and a woman who will not only fight FOR me, but fight against my own stupidity.
Yes. I acknowledge the fact that we men, have a tendency to be more than a little stupid at times.
The way I see it, our spouses are supposed to bring out the best in the people they share their life with.

Okay, so sometimes we may do it kicking as screaming, but in the end, we generally need it.

Well, maybe I'm just talking about myself, but you may nod silently to yourself and I won't tell.


The thing is that I want a woman that has the same basic traditions that I do; who won't bend over to my will and stand up to me when its needed.

Thing is, I thought I came fairly close to that a few times and I was hoping I struck gold recently, but it wasn't meant to be.
To add to being "traditional" as far as a relationship or marriage goes, IDEALLY she would like some of my interests as well.
I know I've discussed this in a previous post, but it still bugs me on what I TRULY want in a relationship and which would win out the most?
If looking for both qualities in a woman, would that lead me on a chase for the Holy Grail that I may never find?  Would it be enough for me to only find half of what I'm looking for to give up looking for either that "Traditional" girl or "Nympho?"

It just makes me wonder.

Excuse me, I have to go ponder sobering up before I go to sleep.

The Smooch

KM and I were talking (okay, Texting), about what she liked in a sensual/sexual relationship.

"Deep long kisses."
"But I have yet to kiss you that way, just smooches."
"I LOVE your little smooches."

The conversation moved on to other things, but it got me thinking.about smooches.

Kissing has been in film since almost the begining of film, poetry, song, and idealized by many adolescent girls.

Me? I prefer smooching.  While the movie "The Kiss" is actually a smooch, while it is extremely tame by today's standards, I find it very erotic.
Don't get me wrong, I enjoy the deep sensual kisses that you could remember for days, but you have to have the right circumstances. To properly plant a good kiss needs the right timing and space needed.
Smooching, on the other hand, can be planted anytime and anywhere, as needed.  It can be given in front of other people without that uncomfortable pause/look from them.  It's a low dose of PDA that won't offend anyone. 
Well, maybe not EVERYONE.
It can be a very subtle reminder that you care for that person, so a drive by smooching is perfectly acceptable. As busy as my schedule is, sometimes that's all you get as I fly out the door, additionally, I've also found that time seems to move a bit slower, allowing to appreciate that person a bit more. A quarter of a second seems to stretch out to a full minute when you look at her in the eyes of your target and you see their eyes change as you get in closer.
I have two favorite targets;  the neck and the lips.
Ears are okay, but only when you have a full make out session going. accidental slobber on the ears can be bad, particularly if you're going back out in public.


Smooching isn't for everyone, but it certainly can be a great deal of fun in just about any circumstance and is a great reminder of that you're simply thinking of them.

Okay, so I have these overly romantic feelings sometimes, I'm not gay, I just happen to like romantic comedies.